RosenWeiss' Chronicle

When your every thoughts are unheard by those who surround you,
When everyone turns their blind eyes on your deeds,
Regardless of how great your sacrifice for them,
When some "kleptomaniac fame thief-will-be" taking credits
On everything that you should have been awarded for
And putting all the blames on your shoulders
When you yourself have nothing to do with it
Until everyone hates you, until you can't no longer find love in you
Sometimes such feeling inflicts so much pain
Even more excruciating than having your throat cut off
By thousands of poisoned knives...

By then you always told you, "I hate myself..."
You started to curse your own fate, your own destiny
And after realizing your efforts are in vain, futile, hopeless
You gave in, falling and keep on falling
Until you reach the bottom of the endless abyss
Of hell you created yourself....

You can't stand to live anymore
You wanted your soul to be isolated from your flesh
So badly that when your tainted wish doesn't reach the Heaven
You decided to act God, separating your soul from your flesh
But praying that you'll end up in The Garden of Eden on your life hereafter
And with complete confidence, your mind is filled with thoughts
At the moment of your death, those who defile you
Will cry in remorse of their wrongdoings
And those who their mind have been "brainwashed" to hate you
Will realize that you're innocent, and in regret, expressing their bitter eulogy
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't treat you this way...
(your name) is innocent, he/she is the person blessed with benevolence in his/her heart
and yet we poison his/her life with such iniquity..... and et cetera et cetera..."

With a contented smile, you step onto your scaffold
Executing yourself with a guillotine of chaotic feelings
Between grief and happiness, hope and vain........................
Bidding your last words.....
"Farewell world, I used to love you, but now I hate you..."

But, something is really wrong
The memories of those who loved you, appreciated you,
But you never, you've always been neglecting
Suddenly stormed inside your mind

Your mother who puts her life at stake in order to gave birth for you...
When you were little, she always said "You are my blood, my life...
Try to achieve what's best for you, and I'll sacrifice everything for that aim
Just to see you happy, just to see you smile, because I loved you..."
And you always reply to her
"I promise I will be the best for you, because I love you, mother..."

Your father, he is willing to risk all of his convenience and the precious time of his life
To ensure you will become someone who he could be proud of
Not a doctor, nor a billionaire and never a king
He just wanted you to become a human,
Who have been granted with mind and judgement ability
To change this world to a better place for every being
Even though the change you made is too small
For everyone to see with their bare eyes...

And why are you forgetting, about Allah...?
He loves you, and all of his creations with an absolute love
He always forgave you, even if your sins are filling the whole galaxy
As long as you have faith in Him, and realizing your wrongdoings
And repented to him, wholeheartedly without even the smallest space of doubt...
Everything that befalls on you, is His doing, as a test
Of how worthy you are as a human....
And you must know that you are able to break through all adversities in life
Because Allah will NEVER impose someone with a calamity
That they can't overcome....
All you need is to have faith in Allah, believe in yourself,
Because with the exception of Allah, nothing is eternal...
Your pain and suffering too, they won't last forever...

Is it going to end here...?
I will say, NO....